i did not report for work today because i felt the need to rest. if you are to ask if i'm ok.. well, honestly, i've been trying to for the past couple of days. i'm just really having a hard time dealing with things right now. oh dear god, please help me.
i guess i'll just have to sleep on this for now. to my friends, i'll catch up with you soon. in the meantime, i shall drown with my thoughts and hope for better days.
*sigh*
P.S. this is not about my lovelife, just in case you're wondering.
i am now trying my luck on this freelance stylist thing. after a month of continuous rakets, this week my schedule is surprisingly BLANK -- as in nothing to do, no projects to work on..na-da. suddenly, i got scared.
i think i need to find a job...AGAIN. got bills to pay and this freelance thing is pretty scary. the lifestyle is pretty much the feast-or-famine type, and being in this state of no-raket-mode is starting to make me nuts! pakshet.
been on a blogging hiatus for months now. honestly, i've got several attempts on posting new entries but in the middle of all the typing i always end up lost in space. its either the things i wrote made no sense or i suddenly felt too sleepy that i can't manage to put into decent sentences all the thoughts that are whirling my head. so, i end up saving the unfinished entries in my drafts and by the time i get back to it, the momentum is gone.
writing has always been my escape. i guess it is true that people tend to write more when they are feeling bad, or something not-so-good has happened, or if they are wishing for something that they really want to get sooo bad. maybe that's why i felt like my unfinished entries weren't good enough for you guys to read because the emotions poured in there were simply "steady". no frills, nothing tremendous.
so why am i writing now?
i just missed it. i missed sharing a "deep" part of me with you all, amidst the crazy amazing things that happened in my life lately. simply put, na-miss ko mag-drama. ahahahaha.
so how's life been treating me so far? pretty decent, i guess. work is good.. we're getting so many new clients everyday, bags business is suddenly getting some huge exposure, i still manage to hang out with my friends and spend time with family, and i am still very much happily in love with my.tor.
i've got nothing dramatic to say, really.
except for... i miss you guys, and i sincerely wish that you're all doing great and living your dreams.
i hope that words as simple as that are good enough. :-)
The thing about love Is i never saw it coming It kinda crept up and took me by surprise And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering Is this true, i want to hear it one more time
Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder
Say it again for me Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again
Thing about you is you know just how to get me You talk about us like there's no end in sight The thing about me is that i really want to let you Open that door and walk into my life
Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder
Say it again for me Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love
And it feels like it's the first time That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain And never in my whole life Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name
Say it again for me Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again
I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five!
that is exactly what i'm going through right now, as told/sung by alanis morisette. hehehe.
isa lang masasabi ko... pakshitttttttt. maloloka na ko... malapit na. ang dami kong ginagawa potaaaaa.
bwahahahahahahahahaha.
di naman sa nagrereklamo ako pero wish ko lang tumigil muna ang oras, as in kahit at least 3 hours lang para makarecover man lang ako sa stress. siyet talaga puede ba mamatay muna then mabuhay ulit after 1 day?
sana hindi ganito kabilis ang oras. im sooo running out of tiiiime and i hate it.
haaaaaaay goodluck nalang saken. i need STRESSTABS! (christmas gift idea!) ahahaha
anyweiz, sorry for the senseless crap. just wanted to scream out loud my stress and hopefully it would go away, even just a little.
i hope you guys are doing well! see you all soon! :-)
Its 3 AM and I am wide awake. Actually, I've been like this since I left my day job. Ironically, I've been uber-to-the-max busy since my OSI exit. As of now, I've been focusing with our bags business like there's no tomorrow. Meetings here and there, fixing this and that, accounting (yes, as much as I wanted to forget it, suddenly we're like bestfriends now), and continuous monitoring of everything. I-lash is still under construction, and I'm using all the free time I have to finish all the things needed to be done for KarenandKaren because by the time I-lash opens, oh my, i'll be like uber-to-the-max-busy-times-two. But I am definitely NOT complaining. Yes, I am having the time of my life right now, even if I've got like a few hundreds (take note, less than 500) left in my wallet and some 20pesos remaining in my ATM account. Bwahahaha! I know, pooorrrr me.
Stress is still there, I think that never goes away but then again, even if I am super tired, at the end of the day I am smiling. That whole DTI thing was the most stressful of them all, (I had to come back to their office like 4 times) but when I finally got our certificate I felt like crying out of extreme joy! Think Will Smith at the In Pursuit of Happyness ending. Yes, I was THAT happy, less the tears. (I had to snap back naman 'no, super OA naman ang maiyak dahil dun. bwahahahaha) But seriously, having that DTI Registration certificate gave me a sudden chill.. Yung tipong OMG-we've-come-a-long-way-na-kalaro-and-this-is-it-na-talaga kind of feeling. Karen and Karen Enterprises is now official. Imagine, we just started last year and a lot of great things happened already. This venture is definitely fulfilling, in more ways than one.
Everyday, I wake up happy, always looking forward to seize the day and accomplish more from my super long to-do list. Unlike before, I have to literally drag my butt off to bed and convince myself to go to work because I have to. Now its different, as much as I loooove to sleep I won't go to bed unless I get to finish all the things that needs to be done. Yeah, I'm turning into a work-a-holic! But, it doesn't feel "work" at all.. tamang relax lang. Hehehe.
Of course, I do take a break from time to time. Actually, today I went out with my.tor and his cousins. It was supposed to be a bowling night that turned into a coffee chill session. I planned to leave the house by 7:30 but I was still eating dinner by 8 and my sister was like "akala ko ba 7:30 ka aalis eh baket andito ka pa?" and then my reply was "eh siempre kain muna ako dito pucha wala na ko pambili ng pagkain 'no." My dad heard me and laughed and told me "naku kawawa ka naman you want to borrow money from me?" AHAHAHAHAHA! Yes people, I am THAT poor. No stable income until I-lash opens. But then again, I am NOT complaining. In life, I have learned that doing what you love comes first, then money will come after. :-)
And oh, btw, I love my.tor and his cousins. Masaya sila kasama. Teehee. :-)
Four (4) more days to go and my full-time stint of marketing/selling softwares for OSI is officially over. Oh yesssss, for those of you who haven't heard about it yet, I did file my resignation about a month ago, which is set to take effect on Sept. 25th, this coming Tuesday. That's right, I finally did it.
This whole resignation thing is prolly one of the hardest decisions I've ever made. You guys know how much I've wanted to quit but can't do it because of many reasons that I will not ramble about anymore. Let's just say that I got lucky, AGAIN (hehe). A great opportunity came my way in the middle of my career crisis which gave me the best exit I can ever have. This opportunity allowed me to take the risk of giving up my promising career at OSI to work for an industry that I am truly passionate for. And now, I coudn't be any happier.
My boss was totally dumbfounded when he read my resignation letter. He was in denial, and can't seem to believe this is all happening. I've never mentioned to any of my colleagues my career dilemnas so it really was a total shocker for everyone. But we all had to face the inevitable. It's time for me to move on.
During my exit interview, I was asked what my plans were, and after relaying it all to my boss, he became very supportive of my decision but he requested me to take the offer of still working part-time with the company, saying that the company still needs my expertise badly (hehe). Of course, I agreed. So at the end of it all, everything fell right into place for me.
So where am I headed next?
*drumroll please*
I am now the Marketing Head of I-lash Extensions Salon, a salon specializing in eyelash extension services, which is set to open this October at Greenhills! Yes, my new job is to promote a service that will make women feel beautiful, one eyelash at a time. And I am soooo excited!
It was my loving boyfriend who made it all happen. He introduced me to the owners, who at that time were in need of someone to handle the marketing for the branch that they are opening in Manila (they are based in Baguio kasi). And of course, who else would my.tor refer but his desperate-to-find-a-new-job-girlfriend (HAHA)! So I met with the owners, and got the job! Haaaaay, it was if God Fed-exd this opportunity right at my doorstep, in such perfect timing. :-)
So after filing my resignation, I scheduled a trip to Baguio (which was last week) for my I-lash 101. It was fun! My mom came with me which made the trip more special. And yes, she had her lashes done too! Ang arte! Hahaha!
Now, as I ponder on everything that happened these past few weeks, I feel more grateful than ever. It really is true that faith can do wonders, big time. No matter how confusing or hard situations may be, God will always provide you with opportunities to become that somebody that you've always wanted to be. It's just a matter of having the courage to go for it at all cost, and trusting yourself that you can do it no matter what. It is not easy, but in the end, you will definitely end up happy. :-)
watching her videos cracks me up! super galiiiinggggg and kuliiiit. hehehe. you can also find her in youtube.com (sikat na sya dun actually, as in sobra). =)
my.tor. for another surprise sundo this morning with matching bouquet of roses in the passenger seat.
tin. for the probing questions with a doze of super kulit remarks and segways (the rico yan-totz pic was hilarious)
jeanie. for another set of probing questions that made me look and think deeper within me.
kalaro. for your straight-up, no-bullshit advice.
a client. for telling me that you enjoyed my presentation.
a k&k client. for the random call, telling me how much you loved our bags and your excitement for the next batch of uploads.
mytor again. for tagging me along at serendra where i had the chance to walk around the place and enjoy the sights/stores at bonifacio high street (while he was there working, hehe). the environment there is sooo relaxing and serene. thank you my.tor, for starting and ending the day with me.
my so-called career dilemmas may not be a life and death situation, but it did made me feel not-so-good these days. but thanks to these wonderful people who made me really smile today, in the middle of my confused head.
How can I find something That two can take Without stumbling as we Walk into our future's wake I'm like a broken record That you can play Repeating as if it matters Everything I want to say
I'll be all right As long as it matters As long as you're here with me now
Forget that time It's nothing we touch and see All this is fine Even as it crashes down on me I'm looking around There's nothing that I could want More than to tell you There's no more than we've already got
I'll be all right As long as it matters As long as you're here with me now
Forget that our time is almost up I'll be all right.
